well, this boisterous young fellow almost saw two 3 am's back to back.  that was the craziest fucking road trip of my life.  i'll blog later.  sleep now


update now.

okay, so i went to this charity golf tournement.  we left at 4 am friday morning.  took 6 hours to get to the town, about an hour or two northwest of poughkeepsie.  played golf for 5 hours.  it was a scramble, meaning each person took a shot and the best ball was the one we played.  it made golf amazingly fun.  except for i lost maybe 10 balls to water, brush, forest, and such.  our team, made up of 3 maybe golfers and someone who never played before.  we were 5 over.  but i did quiet well for myself.  i parred 18 all on my own.  plus i got 2 green in regulations.  which was awesome.

on the way back, we rode with an ex nfl player.  the car was the most beat up thing ever.  the fumes were killing us the whole way home.  plus the guy was  telling the stories about his life and it was kind of scary.  he beat up a cop once and thought nothing of it.

the only other item of note really is the fact that driving home, i watched two cops drag racing down my street at about 2 in the am.

color day tomorrow.  hope to get some photos of this one for you.

i'm going back and forth on discussing my girl adventures.  what is a blog if not for my thoughts.  so i'm going to walk the line again.
i realized i'm not accustomed to be forced to initiate things (duh) and it will just take time and prodding. tonight at dancing i didn't let myself take more than 1 song off in a row.  i asked a bajillion girls to dance.  if my club excuse is that i only like to partner dance, i certainly can't use any sort of excuse why not to ask a girl to partner dance.  so that was good for me.  so on the same point, i think i need to dance with 5 or maybe 10 girls this saturday night.  that will be a good start toward being comfortable asking girls to dance.  there is no friday night clubbing because i'm going to a charity golf tournament.  its for a charity close to the heart of the company and we have a foursome from work going.  rumors have it theres a number of super d-list celebs going, so i'll have to keep you updated.

many many things to update.
so saturday exploring with james, we walked all over boston, to the sea, and all over the back bay.  but i think i talked about that.
saturday night michelle from dartmouth showed up and we went to skyzone.  the place is full to a T of trampolines.  we did backflips, frontflips (michelle learned how!) and played basketabll and dodgeball.  for $15 and 2 hours of fun, theres no better sober saturday night activity in all of boston, maybe the world.
Sunday morning we got up, went and got some bagels/donuts and went to keggs and eggs IV.  michelle was taken right in and we had a great time drinking and not really eating since most everyone else brought booze - which is fine for the most part.  michelle was taking it easy, but i was enjoying my mamosas.  we got to the field and michelle had been recruited to play for red team because they never have enough players.  not only that, the red team got its first win!  michelle did well too, i heard from an inside source.  my team took our first loss, but i had a run and a ribbi.
then we went to the bar and michelle got to play in the real games.  i sang a little eagle eye cherry solo and she got the jist of things.  eventually she was ready and we sang Barbie Girl duet.  all good fun.  as she had to be back for work monday, we left pretty early.  no big deal, we had a good time.

yesterday JANET and i met up for dinner!  she went to ellen's grad party i guess and was in boston.  I said i had to see her, and made it happen!  we met up and i threw her a curveball and said, instead of going right to dinner, lets go to this great costume store.  so i took her to the garmet district - 'its a store, not a district'.  next week is colors week, for fourth of july, and so i got an entire purple outfit.  and these pants may be the tightest i ever worn.  how come everytime time i go buy costumes I end up with tight pants?  anyways, my costume is ridiculous and wonderful.  I also realized, my mom is visiting for sunday, and i am planning to do a duet with her at courtside (the bar) but i'll be in these ridiculous pants.  oh boy.
then, after getting the costume, we went to dinner.  and we hit the jackpot.  we found this irish pub that served Innis and Gunn, and was super duper delicious.  it was well worth the walking.  i had an excelent chicken pasta thing, and janet had avocado crabcake pasta.

life is pretty good.  you just have to get through the workday to get to the the funday

i went dancing again on thursday.  it was fun, but there were more guys than girls by a bunch.  then yesterday we had a beer afternoon at work, which was good cause i wasn't feeling work so much.  then we went to redbones, a really good barbeque place.  it was good.  then today i'm about to go exploring with james.  i'll tell you about it when i get back

james and i walked a huge chunk of boston.  they have this thing called the freedom trail, its a big walking tour of boston.  we jumped on that for a while.  went to the harbor, touched the atlantic ocean. then we walked back all the to the boston common.  we then went and found the bench from goodwill hunting.  we took some photos, then went and had bolocos for lunch.  that stands for boston local company.  they have it at dartmouth too.  so that was fun.  then we went to a bar and had a beer and watched some euro 2012.  finially we headed home

tonight we're going to skyzone, the amazing trampoline filled building.  michelle is coming down from new hampshire to join us and then go play kickball tomorrow.  should be fun.

today was an awesome day.  first of all, i found out i have a reader.  someone cares :P  no but its good to hear i'm not just talking to the world.  although really i'm just talking cause i feel like if my friends blogge about what they were doing, i would want to read it.  so i blog how i would want them too.

but onto the interesting stuff.  i actually enjoyed work all day today.  i realized yesterday if i'm giong to accomplish my project before i have to go to dartmouth, i need to order parts right away.  and that means the guy i'm doing the project for needs to stop giving me half-thought out instructions and fully fledge out the project.  anyways.  i ordered $1800 of parts today and hope to order just under $3k tomorrow.  then i'll spend the next couple days doing mechanical engineering stuff (which is good, I'm a mechE hired as an EE and don't really know what i'm doing, so whenever i get to do something i know how to do, i'm happy).  In th afternoon I started programming the system and that was enjoyable too.  I even worked an extra hour today, cause i was enjoying it and getting paid along the way.  pretty good right?

then i came home and made some leftovers before going to west coast swing.  that was fun to do the lesson.  its all stuff i've done before, but not in a long time, so i need touch up.  after the lessons there was free dancing.  even though i would like there to be tons of cute young girls, its just way more fun dancing with middle to later aged woman.  I'm more relaxed, they're totally unthreatened.  we laugh and have fun.  i danced with prolly 8 or more of them and each of them was awesome.
I may also go back on thursday.  they have thursday lessons which are mostly the same stuff but maybe a little different moves.  we'll see if i go to that.

but i have to tell you what happened during the free dancing tonight.  it was great fun and such, then they paused the music and someone got on a mic and said "we have a birthday"  it was some woman's birthday and they put on a sweet song and the dancefloor cleared, with only her and a man in the middle.  they danced and then he spun her out and she was taken by another man who danced with her for a bit.  i noticed there was a big line.  everyone who wanted to got to have a small period of center stage dancing with the birthday girl.  it was totally amazing.  they played two songs there were so many people who wanted dances.  men, woman, everyone dance wither her.  it was awesome.  clearly it was only for people who had been going to this thing a long time, since she was kick-ass and they all were too.  but it would be fun to be at that level some day.

until next time

I realized the last couple post topics has been about darren overcoming girl fears.  riveting as that is, the only two places that topic can go are things that I don't need to post about.  So this is my last post on the topic (until I undoubtably forget that resolution and bring up the matter again).

Yesterday was really fun.  Sundays always are now.  It started by going to a brunch where pink and purple teams met up for food and drinks.  never gone out for pre-noon drinking before.  that was cool.

then we went to the fields and i played two games.  one of the teams is way under staffed, so some people were lent out to this team.  between that game and my team game, i had 4 hits!  it was awesome.    my team got a tie and the other team i played with lost a heartbreaker.

then the real games started.  the karoake competition was pretty fun.  I'll hopefully get some photos of my outfit.  I thought i did pretty well.  i certainly had fun.  i sang and mostly danced michael jackson's thriller.  there should be video somewhere as well.  some of the other good performances were beastie boys sabotage, queen bohemian rhapsody, and grease summer nights.  i didn't win, but i got plenty of complements on my costume - a sign perhaps.

after the competition there was regular karaoke and drinking.  my day goal was to get a number.  but even before I could ask the girl (who i had been crushing on last week), another girl told me she spoke with this particular girl and heard she thought i was cute.  a good sign.  during my song, another boy sat next to this girl and just wouldn't leave.  i enlisted a teammate to run distraction for me.  then it was just me and this girl.  time to jump in.  getting the number was surprisingly easy.  its not that big a deal, we're already friends, so it was just a friend thing.  but with the new cute datapoint, i had a greater goal.  i wanted a date.  so, i chickened out a couple times, then just went for it.  and she said no.  not ready for a relation right now blah blah.  but you know what.  it wasn't that bad.  we kept talking for a little while and she sent me a nice text later that night.
 
but thats really a great thing.  i asked a girl out and she said no and i'm alive.  not crushed, not hurt, just fine.  so i'm actually content with things.  

Maybe I can do this thing

I've come a long way in the last three days.  I went out on thursday and got the perfect during-week buzz.  I went out on friday and I asked a girl to dance and got shut down.  and last night, i took a couple more steps.

it was jame's 21st birthday, so we went out for dinner and drinking.  dinner was good, and it was late enough that there was a bachelorette party going on in the area.  we had a group of maybe late 20s early 30s come up to us with a list of things they had to do and take photos of.  the first was to take a photo with a "jay".  james is close enough.  done deal.  the next was to get a piggy back ride from someone.  matt is a big dude, taken care of.  I said, why don't you just show us the list and we'll do as many as we can.  the next one on the list was a body shot.  ...  it was my turn to do something for them, so i said i'd do it.  i went and bought a tequila shot and did a body shot off lisa.  matt got a photo.  there is proof.  they thanked us and took off.  we were still giggling.

next we walked around for an hour or something while i was being too picky about where to go.  covers suck.  stupid bars.  anyways, when i realized i was the one keeping us from going somewhere, i said fuck it we're going here.  we bought drinks.  danced a while.  james and matt are both in relations, so they were scouting for me.  (that was weird, they would point to a pretty girl and give me the "hey" eyes).  I asked to dance and got turned down, but immediately was asked to dance by another girl (per james' doing).  then we bought another drink and i went and asked another girl to dance.  she was skeptical but i must have been convincing or something.  so i taught her to swing dance.  that alerted her to my not being a creepy dude.  (which i'm not by the way).  we got to talking and talked and danced for maybe 6 or 7 songs.  she's 24 and doing a masters in marine biology.  sarah.  very pretty.  so we were dancing and matt had to go to catch a train back home.  james mentioned wanting to leave.  and i knew what they were doing (leaving me alone with her) but i freaked out and said something and ran away with james.   i didn't even get her number.  stupid darren.
BUT!  that was some huge steps for me.

And theres still one day of weekend left.  friday's goal was to talk to a girl.  saturday's goal was to dance with a girl (it was supposed to be grind with a girl, cause that's the scariest of all, even more than asking for a number.  i can't just come into your space and touch you.  that's just crazy talk).  sunday's goal is to get a number.  I'm coming home today with a girl's number.  that's going to happen.

big boisterous plans!